Spiritual Awakening in this world

In this world, and especially at the complex time we are in globally right now, we get overtaken by appearances and externals, as if they are the ultimate reality.  But if you look deeply, it will be apparent that physical reality is not a reality in its own right. It is not noumenal, it is phenomenal. 

There is something more than the body-mind and the material world, beyond space and time. And what that is, is the very ‘thing’ that makes the space-time material world to appear in the first place.

We come into life as an apparent human being, for some the journey is about remembering who we are – who we are at our core, our essential, unwavering conscious nature. The realisation of this essential Self is the only real antidote to the suffering and anxieties of this human life because not realising the truth is the true cause of suffering. All worldly happiness and pleasures, being temporary, will sooner or later fail to satisfy. We get involved with work and businesses, relationships, gaining material possessions, trying to achieve success, or going for awards and accolades, and so on. It’s called being human in a rat race. But as a human, we have a greater calling and that is to realize the truth of who we are at our core.

This of course is not something easy for the body-mind. For myself, I have found that the Self-realization journey that I was set on after an unexpected spiritual awakening some 15 years ago deepens and deepens.

The deepening is to do with more and more and subtler ego layers get shed, leaving a deeper, or clearer, awareness of our true nature as Consciousness, and there is a definite sense of peaceful neutrality that has taken the place of previous subconscious emotional dramas.

There is a shifting in and out of being aware of being aware. This journey has one by one taken away so many ego-identifications and attachments which is rather flabergasting to say the least, when I consider my former life. And truly there was a dying in life, in between the two, maybe phases you could say. So with less head mumbo jumbo, there’s so much more space for that inner silence now…

The sufferings, identifications and dramas have served a purpose of realizing that one is not the doer. For the doer is the ego and is an ephemeral thing, a phantom.

Perhaps your time for awakening into the Consciousness is now. Or perhaps you are already past that initial stage or even much further along, and know exactly what I’m speaking of. If so, wonderful.

If not, then know that at this time there seems to be a powerful movement into higher awareness and there is an opportunity and closeness of Consciousness that invites us to return home to our own true nature. The unravelling of society in so many challenging ways as we see playing out in the world, with more to come, is the catalyst or trigger for people to search deeper. Therein lies the silver lining, the blessing in disguise. On a personal level, though there really is personal, it’s all just one, anyway I digress, it was the same with the suffering this body-mind experienced in childhood, it provided the fuel for eventual awakening.


spiritual awakeningThis journey has indeed taken me into the depths of my own emotional suffering and fears. When spiritual awakening opened up I was able to start to release so much emotional pain that I had carried for 4 decades. For some time it was not easy but I learnt to flex the internal muscle and make emotions my friends. For without all the childhood suffering I experienced, I would not have awakened, I am sure of that. As Jiddu Krishnamurti said ‘Pain itself destroys pain. Suffering itself frees one from suffering.’ How profound is that! And then Eckhart Tolle made famous the ‘pain body’ to which we are addicted as human beings.

‘My’ Spiritual Awakening

spiritual awakeningA little about my journey. In 2007  spiritual awakening was not a term I knew, despite many long years of new age type interests, being born a Hindu in India and also practiced Buddhism and Christianity to boot! Not all at the same time though! Guess you could say I was on a search 😏

When it happened it started with an almost tangible feeling of nothingness in my belly. I was experiencing many difficult emotions at the time due to life’s circumstances as well as an accumulation of long-held internalised upset from childhood suffering and loneliness. The emotional damn that I had been trying to keep under control for my whole life burst open of its own accord. The tears seemed without end. I was no longer in control. I felt like a psychological, emotional and mental mess. I thought I was losing the plot and told noone what was going on – brave face and all that malarky. It was the first dark night of the soul.

Alongside the emotional damn freeflowing, the person who I had been up to that point was suddenly realized to be someone I could not relate to anymore, and I instinctively knew of the false nature of the life I had been trying so hard to live and to make successful. This was ego-dissolution although, again, I did not know anything about that till I found these terms online when looking for an explanation for what was happening a little later, and going for healing sessions of various kinds.

Then a little later, some months into this, something happened in which  the Great Consciousness behind everything – God, I like to think Parabrahman – answered my heartfelt prayer and I experienced It consciously as I lay in my bed transfixed from a dream that continued as I lay there, my third eye pulsating. God was communicating with me, and giving me messages telepathically, one of which was that the universe is intelligent, there is an order.

It was all the more mind-blowing to me as I had always felt mildly jealous of religious people who said they felt the presence of God, yet I just could not feel ‘Him’. Further it was even more mind-blowing because that night I had sat on my bed and exorted God or the universe to show me the truth in my dream that night. I knew that that was what I wanted most in life beyond any riches and accolades or the perfect life – the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth (so help me God haha). And I was shown. The Presence that was there that night has never left. How can It? For It is the substance of everything and is always present and always will be. I just knew the latter was the case after that ‘dream’. It cannot not be here and there and everywhere, because everything is within It.

It is our identification with the mind and emotions that stops us from experiencing the deep and obvious truth that is always here. I won’t go into the details of the dream, as this piece will become really long, but I’m happy to share with anyone that wants to know. I remember it vividly to this day. The next morning I was present, awake, in deep awe and saw with new eyes. The witnessing of ‘what is’ that started then has not left. Focus on this awareness goes in and out depending on circumstances. But from that point my eyes knew a new seeing.

Advaita Vedanta / Non-duality

spiritual awakeningThat was the turning point of my life. Along the way after that point I was drawn to many teachers and teachings including Osho, Jiddu Krishnamurti, Ramana Maharshi, Nisargadatta Maharaj, Anandamayi Ma, Paramahansa Yogananda, Gurdjieff, and others. More and more I have come to be drawn to the vedic Advaita teachings and currently my favourite is the Ashtavakra Gita which is Advaita in such simple, but the profoundest terms. You can access a free version from the free spiritual ebooks page.

Along the way, some interesting things occurred, such as waking up vegetarian one day, it was the date 9/9/9 – numbers are mysterious. And an experience of death in life through partaking in a shamanic plant ceremony. But all of these in the end, are simply experiences on the way to union with God.

I particularly love bhakti through kirtan or dancing to sacred music, as that is one of the fastest ways to Self-transformation into union with the Divine. Here is one of my bhakti playlists.

I was in between careers for a while following the above experiences, during which time I trained in soul plan readings and spiritual counselling which I did full-time for a while. I also now offer Spiritual Awakening Guide sessions. Now I am carrying out a job working on websites which I do enjoy and life has a certain level of peace that I am only grateful for. I used to think that if you were spiritual you should only be doing spiritual work to earn your keep. But as my awareness has deepened I now know that any situation in life can be used as fuel for awakening, and abiding in Consciousness can occur in any circumstances. Also it’s worth being aware that sometimes doing specific spiritual work can feed the spiritual ego preventing one from really disssolving the ego as one believes one has made it – until the next drama hits 🙂

I used to be a lot more active with this blog previously, now I post only occasionally. When I do blog it’s generally about Self-realization and other (hopefully) useful or fascinating holistic, spiritual and natural health topics. I wrote an ebook on the alkaline diet some years back. I enjoy a good laugh so check out the spiritual jokes page. If I had to choose a favourite page on my own blog it would be the free spiritual ebooks page where you will find many PDfs and ebooks of a wide range of spiritual books and sacred texts. I sometimes answer questions on Quora.

spiritual awakeningLastly, I am more than aware that we are in some very challenging times on this planet, and things may get more chaotic in the next foreseeable future. There is a groundswell of awakening to the global control the world is in the grip of. We are, as is told in the vedic scriptures, in Kali Yuga, an age of strife and degradation.

Alongside this external awakening it is ever more important to raise one’s inner awareness, as the former is not enough if you are interested in finding out the truth of who you really are. It’s not an easy path for sure, but what else are we going to use this life for? What is more worth the effort than to know who we are in essence?

It is through ignorance of the Atman [Consciousness/Spirit] that the phenomenal universe appears to be real, and this illusion disappears with the realization of one’s true nature, just as the illusion of the snake appears through the ignorance of the object being the rope, and disappears after the recognition of the rope as the rope.    – Ashtavakra Gita (27)

Thank you for reading. Feel free to be in touch if you have any questions. 


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